Dear J... Just So You Know

Dear J,

If ever in the future, you should stop and wonder... I want you to know just how much we love you...

I want you to know how many tears have been cried for you... our hearts breaking whenever you felt sorrow... whenever you felt pain... whenever you felt misunderstood or alone...

I want you to know how many cheers have been yelled for you and kisses blown to you, across the breeze to your heart... our hearts swelling with joy as we watch you... just being you... beautiful you...

I want you to know how many battles have been fought for you... our hearts and minds totally immersed in doing what needed to be done... just for you...

I want you to know how many nights we held you in our arms while you were sleeping... and when you grew too big to hold in our arms, we cuddled you close to us, and stroked your hair just the way you like it stroked... all while you were sleeping...

I want you to know how often we talk to Pa, asking him to watch you from above, guiding you to be the very best you can be... guiding you in your journey of life...

I want you to know... just how much we love you...

..... all the way to the moon and the stars and back again... to little tiny pieces... forever and ever...

Mum & Dad xxxx

One of those vague days

It's going to be one of those days, I can see already...
The last week has been hectic, to say the least, and a few hours out without the kids last night meant the body started to kick in to relaxation mode. So this morning has been a little slow. The kids were kind enough to sleep in a little - lovely! And then when the cat curled up on the bed against me (once the kids had disappeared to make breakfast) I closed my eyes and hoped that the rest of the family might forget about me for a few hours and I could just drift off into dream land... okay, so I wasn't quite lucky enough for that to happen, but it was nice to dream it for a moment or so...
The sky is grey and so perfectly matches my vagueness today. It's kind of like a 'content' vague... yes that describes it better. The head is in a sort of nothingness - to the world around me - but is thinking enough just to be within myself... okay so maybe that doesn't make much sense... but that's the perfection of feeling vague :-)
And when the cloud lifts... well, I can think about that then...
Have a lovely day everyone x