And Another Year Passes...

The eve of the New Year (and its lead up) always has me thinking and reflecting... so what has 2011 been for me?...

2011 saw new 'adventures' as I travelled abroad with Steve - our first 'childless' holiday in 10 years... a journey that marked a significant change in lifestage and created beautiful memories that will last a lifetime...

2011 brought wonderful new opportunities in my career... the chance to share my skills and passion in working in an area that is dearest to my heart...

2011 meant 'letting go' as my baby started school and I faced life as a mum in a different capacity... with children who were becoming more independent than ever...

2011 brought the cementing of beautiful friendships - both new and old - blessed with the foundation of 'realness'...

But most significantly, 2011 was a year of growing self awareness... it was the year that I embraced my true self, really stopped to listen to my heart, and began to really take on a 'truer' way of life...

When I reflect on the year that has been I remember the tears that came with the challenges, but overshadowing those tears is the laughter that came with the joy, and the overwhelming sense of peace that sits with me today...

2011 was a year that I will remember fondly... and as I look forward with anticipation to the year ahead, I trust wholeheartedly that 2012 will be a year just as rich with blessings as 2011 has been...

With love always xx

Dear J... Just So You Know

Dear J,

If ever in the future, you should stop and wonder... I want you to know just how much we love you...

I want you to know how many tears have been cried for you... our hearts breaking whenever you felt sorrow... whenever you felt pain... whenever you felt misunderstood or alone...

I want you to know how many cheers have been yelled for you and kisses blown to you, across the breeze to your heart... our hearts swelling with joy as we watch you... just being you... beautiful you...

I want you to know how many battles have been fought for you... our hearts and minds totally immersed in doing what needed to be done... just for you...

I want you to know how many nights we held you in our arms while you were sleeping... and when you grew too big to hold in our arms, we cuddled you close to us, and stroked your hair just the way you like it stroked... all while you were sleeping...

I want you to know how often we talk to Pa, asking him to watch you from above, guiding you to be the very best you can be... guiding you in your journey of life...

I want you to know... just how much we love you...

..... all the way to the moon and the stars and back again... to little tiny pieces... forever and ever...

Mum & Dad xxxx

One of those vague days

It's going to be one of those days, I can see already...
The last week has been hectic, to say the least, and a few hours out without the kids last night meant the body started to kick in to relaxation mode. So this morning has been a little slow. The kids were kind enough to sleep in a little - lovely! And then when the cat curled up on the bed against me (once the kids had disappeared to make breakfast) I closed my eyes and hoped that the rest of the family might forget about me for a few hours and I could just drift off into dream land... okay, so I wasn't quite lucky enough for that to happen, but it was nice to dream it for a moment or so...
The sky is grey and so perfectly matches my vagueness today. It's kind of like a 'content' vague... yes that describes it better. The head is in a sort of nothingness - to the world around me - but is thinking enough just to be within myself... okay so maybe that doesn't make much sense... but that's the perfection of feeling vague :-)
And when the cloud lifts... well, I can think about that then...
Have a lovely day everyone x